I picture zombies
I tremble
They’re gonna eat me alive
If I stumble
They’re gonna eat me alive
Can you hear my heart beating like a hammer?
Beating like a hammer?
I first discovered Metric on a Jet Blue flight to Boston. Some channel I stumbled across had a live performance of theirs on and I recall seeing this hot chick wailing away on a keyboard. It’s probably the closest I’ve ever been to love-at-first-sight.
Metric released Fantasies back in April last year to mostly good reviews. I haven’t been following the band for a long time but I get the impression that this latest LP is a shift from previous efforts. A bit more introspective and not quite as upbeat.
The track I posted above is not actually about zombies but I figured if I opened with what I really think, it would appear that all I write about is struggling with life. There are definitely times when that voice in my head says, “Help, I’m alive.” I sent an email out to some close friends and family 4 months ago that said pretty much just that. The second after I hit “Send” I was scared shitless that I just did the worst possible thing EVER. People find it hard to talk about suicide and the feelings associated with it. They think it’s best to just not think about those things and put on a smile and keep going through life.
Within 24 hours the responses I got back were completely beyond what I could have hoped for. The compassion and understanding was really amazing. All my friends wanted to be there for me and most of them shared some experience they had with depression. Sometimes it was a family member or friend…sometimes it was something they dealt with in their past…and sometimes it was something they were struggling with right now. I was completely taken by surprise with the number of people that are/were affected by depression in some way. The support structure this has created for me has been invaluable and I can’t emphasize enough how important that one email has been in my life. So if there is anyone else out there reading this that might be struggling too…I know it isn’t easy, but have faith in your friends and family. Reach out and they will most likely surprise you.
